Thursday, July 17, 2008

I saw my doctor yesterday and we discussed my next plan of action. I will go on a new anti hormonal drug which I will take everyday, go in to the cancer center monthly for an iv drug called zometa which is used to harden my bones and hopefully prevent any more spread of cancer. I will have another PET scan in two months to see how this new treatment is doing and then a PET scan every three months for the next year. That's it! Praise God!
I am feeling better, doing more but trying not to over do which is hard because I have been laying on this couch or in my bed for so long that I just want to go. There is plenty of time for that but for now the girls and I are just chilling together and getting caught up on things.
Although it has been agonizing, my cancer has brought me closer to Jesus. There is no better place to get to know our king then on your knees my friends. People have asked me how I can have so much faith with everything our family has been through. Don't get me wrong,of course I have questioned my faith at times but then I remember how much God must truly love me to allow all these miraculous things good and bad to make me into who I am today.
On another not so far off note..... Hal and I were driving last week and I saw someones vanity tag read Psalm 91. Neither Hal nor I could recall what it was so he looked it up and here is what I leave you with. Isn't it awesome how He even speaks to us on licence plates!
PSALM 91 1 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.2 This I declare about the Lord:He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;he is my God, and I trust him.3 For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease.4 He will cover you with his feathers.He will shelter you with his wings.His faithful promises are your armor and protection.5 Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,nor the arrow that flies in the day.6 Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,nor the disaster that strikes at midday.7 Though a thousand fall at your side,though ten thousand are dying around you,these evils will not touch you.8 Just open your eyes,and see how the wicked are punished.9 If you make the Lord your refuge,if you make the Most High your shelter,10 no evil will conquer you;no plague will come near your home.11 For he will order his angelsto protect you wherever you go.12 They will hold you up with their handsso you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.13 You will trample upon lions and cobras;you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!14 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.I will protect those who trust in my name.15 When they call on me, I will answer;I will be with them in trouble.I will rescue and honor them.16 I will reward them with a long lifeand give them my salvation.”

Sunday, July 6, 2008


Well, I went in for my last treatment last Thursday and they told me my counts were too low and that I could not have treatment that day. I pleaded saying it was mt last one but after looking at my white blood cell count, it was pretty evident that it wasn't happening. They gave me another shot in the arm to boost my counts up and I was on my way. The good news is that I don't have to make up the treatment, I am officially done. The bad news is the shot has given me joint and bone pain, really bad headaches, and I am having trouble sleeping. I love to sleep and just cannot get my mind to rest and get a good deep sleep which leaves me in a trance all day. I am not sure how long this is supposed to last but just keep praying that it is soon. It will probably be another month before I get my energy back and another two before my hair starts to grow back. God has a plan, this I know but I keep pleading with Him to just let me get back to my old self again. In time I know I will get there, for now I will just continue to learn more and be amazed about life, God, family, and friends.